End-ing.

I’m afraid to give you my all, I’m afraid to love you completely. What if behind your beautiful face and kind words you are just bribing me. Maybe you are just reeling me in until you turn around and drop me. I’d fall so far and never be able to recover, I wish I could see the ending sometimes. I would know if I should hold on to you and keep going or just let it all end before I get up too high."

This is the END. I have to accept it dgn redha. I am the one who make this decision. So, i have to be strong to live this life with my own. Someone says to me : Everything yg jdi nie ada hikmahnya. I HOPE SO ! I cant deny myself. I admit that i still loving and missing him like before and always. But, i cant go on with this anymore. I have to be brave and strong to handle with that. And I'm TIRED of all this. Come on. Im going to be 17 years old next year. I have to be matured and cant go on with this kinda thingy anymore. I reaallyy HOPE that I have make a good decision.I still have my very own twins and my cousins annd my awesome friend that always be besides me.

I want to make changes of myself. I want to get out from dat 'kind of peoples'. And live my life with my own life and for me family is number one no matter what. iloveyou.